The mosrt randomest post :P

*sigh* Times running forward as fast as it could. Going through the bittersweet things these last days made me realize that after all life is not actually what you plan it to be. People make decisions for your or they simply just take over your life thinking that they are making it better but they actually are making it hard for you to live. Pealing off the ties that bind us is as hard as peeling off a coconut shell with your bare hands. Everything that we do is usually shaded with the fact that what the world is going to say. It effects our life and tears off our freedom. Though I'm not trying to make this a soul lifting blog (which I usually end up doing) it is still going that way :p  So back to reality, The reality that doesn't even exists. It's the picture that we paint ourselves. We usually don't even need a thing to remind us that we also are the part of the same world. Everything has its own two side, the bad and the good, the light and the dark. Either we paint ourselves black or white, that reflects how we go around acting towards people. I don't even know why I'm writing this right now XD. So the funniest thing that I came across today was a guy who posted video of himself. Talk about being too full of one's self.. Made me laugh my ass off after such a long time. The complexes and the desperation that people have never stops to amaze me. I just realized that this is a veryyy random post which doesnt even mean anything but anyhoo I was thinking of just writing (not even caring that how silly I sound right now) or if you see it the other way Im just putting off going to bed which is not right since I have to get up and all I think I should now leave which I'll do right now :P after I shut the pc down and everything :P

*Umeed=Hope*

Every now and then, you go through a phase when all you want to do is sit and sulk. You feel bad about yourself, start to think of all the people you might have disappointed. There's nothing or none who can cheer you up. You try to indulge yourself in stuff but get tired of doing it after some while. Nobody understands what actually you want and all you can think about is how people are going to hate you for the things you have done. Every passing moment is hard to get by. There's all but the silence around cause of you shutting everyone out. You have no idea for what you are suffering, feeling dead. You fight with everyone push them away. You change and change yourself hoping to get through life. You are suddenly afraid of risking it all again. Failed attempts after attempts, trying to make everything alright. Making excuses for every feeling just to make yourself feel better. You can't share whats really in your heart afraid of what people might say or how they would label you. All the love is buried deep inside of you. You want someone to come by and just sweep you off of your feet making it alright. Feeling empty inside like every fiber of your body is being ripped apart. Looking around and finding nobody to be there. But then there is this tiny fragment of the most brilliant light ever. Far away in the pitch black darkness of your life. It's the hope inside of you, making you realize that you have to make an effort yourself to make it better. You have to find yourself. Serenity sweeps over you making you see all the wonderful things around you, all the wonderful people there are for you waiting for you to come to them. The feeling of being lost somewhere starts to fade away as you clear your mind of all the worry, of all the depressing thoughts you ever had. That is the one moment you feel blissful. It's the mistakes that makes you realize where you were wrong and helps you grow out of your shell. It's the past that makes you strong, giving you the strength to live the present and to plan a better future for yourself. So, when there's hope for something good, there's nothing in this world that would stop the goodness from taking over your life   

Just the way you are

When I see your face
There's not a thing that I would change
Cause you're amazing
Just the way you are
And when you smile,
The whole world stops and stares for awhile
Cause girl you're amazing
Just the way you are

This is what every girl dreams of being told by her guy. She has her own little world all wrapped around him and everything starts and ends at him. She wants to feel special and needs to be told that she has the place in his world that nobody can ever replace. Lots of stuff that have huge importance wouldn't matter to her, yet littlest possible attention, care, & love makes her feel out of the world. Every now and then, girls with broken hearts and teary eyes find someone who was meant just for them all along. He completes their world. Scared at first, they let themselves loose and risk another chance even knowing maybe this wouldn't end the way they think it would. Every heartbreak, every pain they came across slowly fades away. They feel like being healed from the inside. They finally start believing in the love they have lost their hope in. The guy makes them feel proud of who they are and  what they do. They start to regain the self esteem they have apparently lost. After all love isn't just about compromising, it's about compassion and how two people respect and understand each other, trusting with their darkest secrets, sharing every joy and sorrow, being there, holding each other and helping to get through stuff and completing each other. All one has to do, even after the holding on to the broken pieces of their heart is to just wait for the right one to come along.The one to whom, you'll mean the world, the one who would complete you in every possible way, the one who's simplest words will tell you your worth. So take chance, discover the world and simply just live your life and the one you always have dreamt of will walk through your life and make it beautiful. <3

The Sinking boat

Life, sometimes feels like a sinking boat. People come into your boat and their betrayal, their lies just make huge holes and you feel like sinking deep into the realm of darkness. All the aura of light, happiness, joy starts to disappear. It feels as if your life is painted black and no matter how you try, you just can't find your way out. People just see their pain, lean on you and when you are of no use for them, they'll leave just cause your heart misery and leave you behind. To them, the priority is not you, but loads of other thing where as you find yourself crying in the middle of the night over them. You'll break from so many places that you wont even know where to start mending yourself. You stop trusting others as well, the ones to whom you mean something and you start pushing them away. It becomes hard to trust you own self as well. What we need to realize here is that no matter how afraid we are, we should refrain from hurting our self for someone who's not even worth it. Why cry for someone who's not even there to catch you when you fall. Go out, move on, take risks and you might come across things you wouldn't even have ever dreamt of. A very close friend of mine told me that "Every movie we see, Every story we're told, in a way or two begs us to wait for it, the unexpected declaration of love, the exception to the rule. But sometimes we're so focused on finding our happy ending we don't learn how to read the signs. How to tell from the ones who want us and the ones who don't, the ones who will stay and the ones who will leave. And maybe a happy ending doesn't include a guy, maybe... it's you, on your own, picking up the pieces and starting over, freeing yourself up for something better in the future. Maybe the happy ending is... just... moving on. Or maybe the happy ending is this, knowing after all the unreturned phone calls, broken-hearts, through the blunders and misread signals, through all the pain and embarrassment you never gave up hope. - 'he's just not that into you'. " Love, is indefinitely a part of life, but you should never let it ruin your life for you. Somewhere, somehow, you have to put your foot down and learn to get back up on your own and live your life the way you want to.