Every now and then, you go through a phase when all you want to do is sit and sulk. You feel bad about yourself, start to think of all the people you might have disappointed. There's nothing or none who can cheer you up. You try to indulge yourself in stuff but get tired of doing it after some while. Nobody understands what actually you want and all you can think about is how people are going to hate you for the things you have done. Every passing moment is hard to get by. There's all but the silence around cause of you shutting everyone out. You have no idea for what you are suffering, feeling dead. You fight with everyone push them away. You change and change yourself hoping to get through life. You are suddenly afraid of risking it all again. Failed attempts after attempts, trying to make everything alright. Making excuses for every feeling just to make yourself feel better. You can't share whats really in your heart afraid of what people might say or how they would label you. All the love is buried deep inside of you. You want someone to come by and just sweep you off of your feet making it alright. Feeling empty inside like every fiber of your body is being ripped apart. Looking around and finding nobody to be there. But then there is this tiny fragment of the most brilliant light ever. Far away in the pitch black darkness of your life. It's the hope inside of you, making you realize that you have to make an effort yourself to make it better. You have to find yourself. Serenity sweeps over you making you see all the wonderful things around you, all the wonderful people there are for you waiting for you to come to them. The feeling of being lost somewhere starts to fade away as you clear your mind of all the worry, of all the depressing thoughts you ever had. That is the one moment you feel blissful. It's the mistakes that makes you realize where you were wrong and helps you grow out of your shell. It's the past that makes you strong, giving you the strength to live the present and to plan a better future for yourself. So, when there's hope for something good, there's nothing in this world that would stop the goodness from taking over your life
Friday, January 7, 2011
*Umeed=Hope*
Every now and then, you go through a phase when all you want to do is sit and sulk. You feel bad about yourself, start to think of all the people you might have disappointed. There's nothing or none who can cheer you up. You try to indulge yourself in stuff but get tired of doing it after some while. Nobody understands what actually you want and all you can think about is how people are going to hate you for the things you have done. Every passing moment is hard to get by. There's all but the silence around cause of you shutting everyone out. You have no idea for what you are suffering, feeling dead. You fight with everyone push them away. You change and change yourself hoping to get through life. You are suddenly afraid of risking it all again. Failed attempts after attempts, trying to make everything alright. Making excuses for every feeling just to make yourself feel better. You can't share whats really in your heart afraid of what people might say or how they would label you. All the love is buried deep inside of you. You want someone to come by and just sweep you off of your feet making it alright. Feeling empty inside like every fiber of your body is being ripped apart. Looking around and finding nobody to be there. But then there is this tiny fragment of the most brilliant light ever. Far away in the pitch black darkness of your life. It's the hope inside of you, making you realize that you have to make an effort yourself to make it better. You have to find yourself. Serenity sweeps over you making you see all the wonderful things around you, all the wonderful people there are for you waiting for you to come to them. The feeling of being lost somewhere starts to fade away as you clear your mind of all the worry, of all the depressing thoughts you ever had. That is the one moment you feel blissful. It's the mistakes that makes you realize where you were wrong and helps you grow out of your shell. It's the past that makes you strong, giving you the strength to live the present and to plan a better future for yourself. So, when there's hope for something good, there's nothing in this world that would stop the goodness from taking over your life
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